i've been trying to be as truthful as i can
in this day and age when every is accessible...it kinda ruins interpersonal relationships because things are expected to go a certain way. Everything is so instant and just is...I myself have been guility of this...but a friend of mines said it best..slow walking is the pits...when i say slow walking it's pertaining to anything in your life that's moving at a snails pace...You just wanna scream..come on already!!!...i mean i know everything takes time..but even the slowest of things reap benefits or let's you know you're getting somewhere in the process.. I think disappearing off the grid for 2 weeks will put things in prespective for me and others..namely my friends..when i'm not so accessible thru email and instant messenger and things...i think we take for granted that someone is always there...and i really think people need to fill loss every once in awhile...i'm not trying to be mean but folks really think that you'll be around forever and that's simply not true...
It's also hard to be 100% honest in a blog that people look at for clues...clues into your misery and unhappiness..when that's not the case at time..i spend alot of time in pensive mode..I'm not sad or angry... not depressed but i find myself thinking on ways to improve the things that went wrong before in my life. I have another blog on myspace...and i've even given thought to getting rid of that just like i did my black planet account..even tho it's an excellent networking tools things are just too...open..i've had to make my profile public because various coworkers are on there and because a few of my ex's ex's wanna know who i am and figure out why they ex liked me so much...*sigh* It's all too much...
Even tho i'm very cool as a individual...i show a lil emotion but things just dont get to me as much as they should..but this is my declaration to say just i am...i've heard it hinders me because im hard to read...but when i feel a certain way about u i'll let u know...i hate when folks try to have u guessing... but yes...*raises glass* I hereby declare to stay 100% boogie all the time..even in the face of unwaivering and extreme loathe..i shall not bend....yaymen.
It's also hard to be 100% honest in a blog that people look at for clues...clues into your misery and unhappiness..when that's not the case at time..i spend alot of time in pensive mode..I'm not sad or angry... not depressed but i find myself thinking on ways to improve the things that went wrong before in my life. I have another blog on myspace...and i've even given thought to getting rid of that just like i did my black planet account..even tho it's an excellent networking tools things are just too...open..i've had to make my profile public because various coworkers are on there and because a few of my ex's ex's wanna know who i am and figure out why they ex liked me so much...*sigh* It's all too much...
Even tho i'm very cool as a individual...i show a lil emotion but things just dont get to me as much as they should..but this is my declaration to say just i am...i've heard it hinders me because im hard to read...but when i feel a certain way about u i'll let u know...i hate when folks try to have u guessing... but yes...*raises glass* I hereby declare to stay 100% boogie all the time..even in the face of unwaivering and extreme loathe..i shall not bend....yaymen.
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